Remembering

3 months ago on Friday Sept 17th my life was as normal as any 25 year old mother of 3s life could be. 

We spent the day at my sisters house playing with her and her 3 children doing a spur of the moment photo shoot of the kids just because they are the cutest kids ever

and then went to a dear friends wedding reception where we gladly showed off our adorable boys. 

We then went to my parents house and we played Just Dance on the Wii. 

My facebook status as I went to bed that night was

"I am the new MC Hammer"

It was a great night. 

We went to Wal Mart on our way home to pick up some snacks and some food for breakfast

As we walked out of the store my sweet baby started whimpering in his sleep I tried my best to comfort him

telling him "Everything was okay" he woke up and gave us a sad kind of smile and fell back asleep.

We got home and let Carter sleep in his car seat for a little while as we washed bottles so that we could have clean bottles for the morning feeding that would come about 6:30 am.

He had always been good at sleeping he had a routine where he fell asleep for the night at 10:30 and woke up at 6:30.

After the bottles were clean I picked up my baby and snuggled and played with him and gave him his last bottle for the night. 

He fell back asleep like clock work at 10:30 and I took him into his room and cleared out his bed and laid my baby down to sleep.

I then finished cleaning and getting the other boys to sleep (they were having a slumber party in the front room)

At midnight I was finally done and ready for bed I slipped into Carters room and fixed his blankets gave him a kiss on his forehead he woke up and gave me the type of smile that melts every mothers heart and I gave him his pacifier and watched as he fell asleep.

I then went to bed ready for a little sleep not realizing I had just seen my babies eyes and smile for the last time. 

Not knowing that my life would drastically change within the next 8 hours.

In a way I feel like with it being Friday the 17th of December I am reliving that last night all over again in my head.

He had a million looks.